We’d been thinking about possibly making a church change at some point.
Maybe. Sometimes. Later. Maybe not.
But that night, although I didn’t hear audibly from God, I had no doubt he was telling me, “Now!”
Really, God? But this is where I’ve been for years. Where I thought I’d stay for years more.
Now!
So I walked away. From the familiar, the comfortable, the known.
Into? Well, I’m still not actually sure.
What I am sure of is this: if you’re not able to glorify God well where you are, you might need to go somewhere else.
Maybe not immediately. Because maybe the problem is more you, less the circumstances. Or maybe it’s still not clear. Give it time. Pray. Repent. Grow.
But if he makes it clear—and he made it clear to me, over and over—don’t look for compromises. Be responsible. Be obedient. Go.
The cost
Won’t that hurt? Yes. Majorly. It’s been months and I still hurt. I miss friends.
But I was missing grace more. I was missing freedom that Jesus died to give me. I was missing a consistent, dead-center focus on the One who gives his all so we can have it all and surrender it all for his purposes.
Maybe I wasn’t meant for safe church. He knows I need pushes (I’m not exactly a thrill-seeker). I can too easily sit down in comfort when I need to be stepping out in faith. Need to be chasing grace. Need to be shadowing closer.
So when I saw him illuminating the exit door just for me, I was uneasy.
Following Jesus isn’t for the faint of heart. Sometimes he asks you to make a bold move, one you don’t really want to make. This was one.
I had to obey—because I trust him mostly—and I want to trust him totally.
I grabbed his hand and we walked.
What has it cost me? A lot. Some people don’t understand. They’re hurt or angered or confused. Many have yet to notice (that aches, too). And others just don’t care (I’m not naïve). I’ve had to sacrifice security; approval; convenience.
The benefits
But what am I gaining?
- Peace, resting in the confidence I’m walking in his will
- Faith, leaning harder on him, less on heritage
- Intentionality, seeking more opportunities to love him, to love others
- Provision, uncovering new resources and insights and relationship
- Worship, releasing new avenues to praise and honor him
- Purpose, reevaluating gifts that can be better used for his glory
Leaving was more than walking from; it was walking toward.
Toward a righteousness holier than my doctrinal intellect.
Toward a kingdom mission broader than a single tribe’s.
Toward a grace wilder than man’s manufactured works.
God doesn’t always require a departure to walk closer with him. But sometimes he does ask us to leave a place or a ministry or a relationship where his work through us is complete and is no longer functioning to glorify him (at least through us).
When he does, what will we do?
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What is God nudging you away from? Toward?
I’m sharing My Hazardous Faith Story for the synchroblog connected to Ed Cyzewski and Derek Cooper’s new book Hazardous: Committing to the Cost of Following Jesus. My review here.
Share your own story of costly discipleship at In a Mirror Dimly, all week.
Mari-Anna Stålnacke · 657 weeks ago
Lisa notes 103p · 657 weeks ago
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Ed Cyzewski · 657 weeks ago
Also, Mari-Anna, that's a great point. The waiting after a leap of faith is tough!
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Lisa notes 103p · 657 weeks ago
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Amy Young · 657 weeks ago
I'm going to hang on to that one.
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Lisa notes 103p · 657 weeks ago
I'll look forward to your review of Ed's book. And hopefully a post from you at the synchroblog.
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floyd 60p · 657 weeks ago
The odd part is that I still love those people I felt we had to leave, it was more for our youngest daughter than anything else. I met with the pastor who is a good friend and told him what I was contemplating and asked for his input. He was gracious and kind. We still meet for lunch and other things. While we left as just our family, there were a lot of other people feeling the same thing that we were, including some elders who'd been there for over 25 years... None of them went and talked to the pastor, not even a phone call.
The hardest thing to do was to meet and show respect to the pastor, but since we are all the family of Christ, shouldn't we do that hard thing too? I think we in our society have gotten so used to taking the easy way out, it's become a bad habit.
I know our circumstances was different than yours, but it takes understanding that God doesn't always walk us around the valley of the shadow of death... Often He marches us right through the middle of it... For His glory.
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Lisa notes 103p · 657 weeks ago
But continuing to love the people even when you're no longer with them regularly? That's a great thing to do. I want to continue doing that as well. I made an "intentional friends" list of people we want to make sure we stay in touch with. We also continue to meet fairly regularly with our Sunday night small group and off and on with others. I don't want to lose these special folks from my life.
I also love what you shared about meeting and showing respect to your pastor. That definitely needs to happen more often. We met with our shepherds to let them know we were going, and they were very appreciative of that. It was a healthy evening for all of us.
Marching through the valley...yep, sometimes he does march us right through, and thankfully he goes with us. Thanks for sharing this part of your journey with me, Floyd. I appreciate your consistent openness and honesty.
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Jeff saw a little purse today in a gift shop and he immediately thought of getting it for Lillie but he refrained. ;-) Love y'all!
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Barbara H. 65p · 657 weeks ago
"Following Jesus isn’t for the faint of heart." very true. I crave safety and familiarity, but sometimes He has higher purposes for us than that.
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Great post and very brave.
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@AmyLSullivan1 · 657 weeks ago
Thanks for the reminder and thanks for the story. God knows I ususally need more than a nudge. I need a good hard push.
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Thank you for your open heart and willingness to share.. it is always appreciated Lisa!
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